KIMBERLY

Just Me Being A Woman

I got my boobies measured because it had been a while. 4 years? No, I did not stick to one size for the last four years but I just went up a size whenever I felt like I had grown. Anyway, I decided to get a proper fitting because I was curious if I was indeed a 36B or smaller.  36B usually fits pretty nicely but I found myself adjusting the straps really high in order for them to fit comfortably. 

I can’t believe I’m writing about this.

Moving on.  The sales girl told me I was a 36C but wants me to wear 34C because it’ll stretch out and I won’t have to buy new bras every few months.  I don’t know why I listened to her.  All my 34C bras give me this absurd back fat I never knew I had.  Ridiculously uncomfortable and I am miserable in them.  They make my boobs look GREAT because they’re jam-packed in a tight-ass bra. 

I’ve been wearing my 36Bs again. 

I wore a 34C to sleep last night and now my ribs hurt. Also, my titties feel swollen. That’s cool.

Whatever

It’s stupid to need attention from someone that doesn’t even know me. I need to find a better way to kill my leisure time.

A Certain Someone

You annoy me.  Always have.  You think everything you say is gold and everyone ought to gather around to listen.  You think you’re helping people but in reality you’re weak and you literally haven’t helped anyone.  I don’t know how I was able to hang around you.  Incredibly boring, selfish, and cheap.  I can’t stand people who don’t know how to enjoy life without making it all about money.  I’m Asian and even I don’t do that.  I wish you’d stop thinking that every endeavor you take on is a great one.  I respect the people who are in that line of work but I do not respect you.  If you change, I will definitely show some respect.  You’ve never done anything good without trying to get people to thumbs up your deed.  Stop trying to get recognition off of it.  I think you suck as a human being.  I had really low self-esteem when I was with you and the moment we were done I felt so much better about myself.  I’m sure you were trying to keep me that way so you could have it your way.  And you did. And it was awful. Lol. As long as you’re happy with being you, that’s great.  Don’t try to target me as someone who has hurt you.  You wasted my time and money.  I spent so much money on gas that summer. Ugh.  

Ahh…

I finally have some time to write something on here and no one will read it. Cool.

Recently (a few hours ago), I was having a conversation with someone and we talked about levels of intelligence between men and women.  When it comes to levels of anything I always think of the hysterical exchange between Elaine and that uppity European in the elevator. “There are no degrees of coincidences!” “No, there are big coincidences and there are small coincidences! THIS IS A BIG COINCIDENCE!”. So great. And unrelated to what I want to talk about.  

He stated that generally women are smarter than men.  Which I couldn’t believe because although I don’t know this person too well, from what I can observe he only communicates to a certain type of woman. This type would require them to have a vagina and a set of boobs that they show off frequently. It made me wonder why he chose to communicate with me and if I fell under the category of these women. I don’t show off my chest or vagina [too much] so I still am unclear about why he makes the effort to talk to me. He bothers me because he loves to state how some females say stupid things.  I was offended each time he would say it.  Lol.  I never told him what he said about stupid ladies offended me but I made sure he knew that I say stupid things often.  He would tell me I wasn’t like the others and that’s why he chose to communicate with me.  I think he just said that to make it less awkward.  I only felt slightly flattered because something else was bothering me.  I couldn’t help but feel like most women are so embarrassing.  They complain about the most meaningless things in life and make themselves seem disconnected with what should matter in life.  I know most people in general tend to do this… *Ahem* irregardlessly… but to me women do this more often.

I have always felt men were far more intelligent than women.  I know it makes me sound insecure and inferior towards men but that’s how I feel.  When it comes to an expertise of a matter it seems like men are a more reliable source than women.  This friend agreed and said he was only discussing average human beings and among the average intelligence women are smarter.  He continued to say “men have a greater capacity for intelligence” and this also offended me. But I have a vagina so I ended the conversation there.  Part of me wanted him to say that but the moment he did I felt worthless.  

I don’t know exactly why I wanted to make an entry about this because I don’t have a point.  I just feel embarrassed… not so much for the things I do but for what most vagina-havers do.  I hate weak women.  But don’t I sound weak writing about this?  I’m just as terrible in other cases. 

This person also likes to correct my jokes when I feel like it’s obvious and unnecessary to correct.  It ruins the joke.  Ruins the rhythm.  He obviously thinks I’m stupid to have to correct me.  This upsets me.  Now I’m upset.  

I’m not smart and I know this but I don’t believe I’m stupid.  I’ve never had to try and prove it so now that I feel like I should I don’t even know how.  Lol… because I’m stupid.  Oh, Jesus. This is going nowhere.  I just needed to do some freestyle writing.  Something that I used to enjoy doing.